I’m beginning to wonder what else 2020 could dish out. These are such bizarre and uncertain times we are living in.
I had a dream last night that my ex-husband had a baby with a woman who was in his life long ago and has been back in his life for a few years.
I texted him to tell him about it, and we both laughed. I tell you what, if such a figment of my imagination came to fruition, it would be right in line with the unpredictability of 2020.
What else can this year pour out?
In all seriousness, I know a few marriages that are deeply struggling. I know anxiety is at an all-time high for some people, including people who typically don’t find anxiety to be a problem. And I’m finding that just when I think I have a grasp on some things, I realize how off track I might be.
Our school district is opening schools fully (with masks) for this upcoming school year. But the district is giving parents the option to have their kids do distance learning from home. We can decide quarter-by-quarter, but we have to fill out a form so that they can allocate resources accordingly. I think they will dedicate some teachers to distance learning and some to classroom learning, but I’m not sure.
I thought for certain our fairly introverted son would prefer to stay home, but he surprised me and said he would rather go. He’s tired of staring at the same four walls. He’s actually tired of computer games and being stuck in the same surroundings. He needs some new scenery.
Who can blame him? I need some new scenery.
He and I have a trip to Colorado coming up so we can see some extended family. But I’m kind of wondering if it is a good idea. I just don’t know. I oscillate between being totally laid back and fine and totally confused about what are appropriate risks.
Two ongoing crises in my and my husband’s life have only added to our bewilderment and stress. There are aspects to both that are quite serious, to the point that the pandemic has (at times) felt distant on our radar, in light of these other challenges going on.
Oh, and our dog keeps throwing up. So there’s that. We’ve already been to the vet once in the past month for something else with her, but now I’m thinking another trip may be in store. What in the world, 2020? My cup runneth over.
Anyway, if hindsight is 20/20, how we will view 2020? Down the road, how we will look back on 2020? Most days when I ponder this question, I think we will be so glad we are down the road when we ask it. We will be so glad 2020 is distant in the rearview mirror.
But in everything there are lessons. I’m looking for them; hungering for the nuggets of a-ha moments that bring clarity and peace and revelation and meaning.
I hope you’re looking for them, too.
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